Changing things up

      Changing it up is the name of the game this round! Yes, I am still running! Yes, I am still going to the gym but, things are a bit different! I am now doing a cardio session with my trainer (which I figured hell I'm a marathon runner...this will be easy! Ha I was wrong!) that is the toughest 30 minute session ever!! I am also doing a boot camp class with some of my friends! Talk about the hardest hour of my life :) I felt like I was on the Biggest Loser Ranch! I would not and could not do that class if it were not for my amazing friends! The laughter makes the sweat worth it! As we were running a few laps around the track tonight a friend reminded me that being comfortable and jogging is not going to change things! I've got to be ready to push myself to new heights and do it a bit different this round! Yes last year I do great and I kept off the weight I wanted to but I'm ready to finish this up and get to my final goal!!
    I would love to say that this is easy and that I am 100% confident in myself that I can and will finish this. I am about 70% most of the time that I can do this! It is a moment by moment journey for me. Sometimes I think "wow, I really have changed and I can do this!" Other times when I let the food win or I have a crappy workout I think "what's the point." This is a life changer for me and I am not the same person I was 4 years ago! Today on my way home I heard this song: I thought heck...worst case I will just keep running :) Giving up is not an option- yes it floats through my head way more than I actually want to admit, but I am going somewhere and have already ended up somewhere different!
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    Guess what this weekend is ?!?! Super Bowl Sunday...WOOOOHOOO....I HATE FOOTBALL :-) So, for me it means food, friends, food, fun, food, oh and did I mention food?! You see, I like chips, dips, pizza, wings, and absolutely anything you need a toothpick to eat!! These are the times where I feel very out of control with my eating. I am a grazer and I can eat and eat and eat and eat without even realizing it! The more I talk the more I eat, the longer I am in the situation the more I eat! Part of me wants to stay at home with my sugar free Jello and 94% fat free popcorn. BUT I WON'T. I will win this freaking food battle somehow.....even if it means using my very cute pink polka dotted duct tape!!

      I have consistently logged my food for the past 23 days and done really well calorie wise. I've allowed myself to go over my calories by no more than 400 one day a week! The past two weeks I have done my cheat meal with a friend that is loosing weight too, so that is fun to get to celebrate a bit each week.