I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)
This is by far my favorite MJ song and for some reason when I heard it today it clicked in a different way. I heard it today as a message to myself that only I can control who I see when I look in the mirror. I have to find happiness in what I am seeing. For so long I saw a fat unhappy person. The person I am starting to see now is more confident, happy, and content. Only I can change what and who I see in the floor length mirror. It is so easy sometimes to see the bad when looking at your own reflection- but what about being able to be positive about that reflection. I think that when I am happy with what I see I am a better person all around because thats darn reflection affects so much of ones life. It is how I start and end my day- if I can get past the acne I see on my face and the "muffin top" that I swear will never go away, then I can be a positive person in so many parts of my life. I have to start believing what others are telling me and I have to give credit to myself where it is due instead of constantly making a "honey to do list" for myself.
Motivation- hmmm something that I seem to be lacking lately...hmmm something that can go one of two ways. Motivation is and internal and external part of life. As defined my dictionary.com motivation
The act or an instance of motivating, or providing with areason to act in a certain way: I don't understand what hermotivation was for quitting her job. Synonyms: motive,inspiration, inducement, cause, impetus.
2.
the state or condition of being motivated: We know that thesestudents have strong motivation to learn.
3.
something that motivates; inducement; incentive: Clearly,the company's long-term motivation is profit.
So I ask myself this question tonight what really motivates me. Well first of all it is the number on the stupid scale. That number has instilled in me a personal motivation- I want that number to decrease so when it doesn't I am motivated to word harder and when it does decrease I find gratification- on the same side of this coin comes frustration and sometimes a lack of motivation because when I think you are working my butt off and that number does not change I want to make excuses and find reasons why it is not changing. And if I were completely honest with myself I would know that the number is not changing because I have stopped working 100% and 75 % will not get me where I want to be.
Another thing that motivates me are my friends. They motivate me to be better and to push myself to places I never thought I would ever go and to do things I never in a million years thought imaginable.
The final think that motivates me is me....I want this change in my life- yes my friends are happy for me and I am healthier, but most of these people liked me 50 pounds ago. So I am not really changing for them the only person I can change for is me that person that I see everyday numerous times a day in the mirror.
The more steps I take, miles I walk/run, and weights that I lift I learn from. This journey that I am on is a journey that I determine the outcome of. A journey that I am in control of. Running is a sport of personal bests, personal records, personal times, and personal accomplishments. Running is a sport that does not need teams- this sport needs me! I am trying to remember that in the midst of my crazy good life I have the power to change things and the ability to be the best me I want to see in the mirror. The only person I can hold accountable is myself. I can blame no one or credit anyone for what I do or do not accomplish. I am finally doing something for ME!!!
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