Then I understood

So I did not feel the best about myself when I started teaching but I loved my job. I had no problem eating whatever I wanted and complaining about how I looked in my outfit. In my own personal defense I did not have ANY free time my first year of teaching. I spent what seemed like my entire first year at school. But I was not ready to change. And please know, that this entire time I am paying $24.95 a month for a gym membership that I am not ever using! My second year of teaching is a different story. I thought that I was ready for this life change so I decided to join our schools biggest loser competition. Now at this school is a woman (my dear friend) that has lost a ton of weight in a healthy way. I would talk to her all the time about it. And she said to me “Stephanie if you are not truly ready this will not work.” I thought how dare this lady say this to me…so I did the competition and you know what I sucked at it. I maybe lost 5 or 10 pounds, which I packed back on over the summer. So needless to say I thought that I was ready and was not! This continued until about 2010. Then I decided that I was really ready. And I sat back down with my friend from work who told me exactly what she had done and the big thing was writing down what she was eating and exercising everyday. I thought OK I can do this but I knew that I needed a bit of a jump-start. So, I went to the gym and signed up with a nutritionist to understand food better. I begin to see food in a new way and how important it is to really know how much I am putting in my body. My friend from work has been such an inspiration and someone that truly understands what I am going through! I owe her a huge THANK YOU!!! I understand now where you truly have to be willing to make changes in order for any sort of weight lose to work. You have to truly be ready for this CHANGE!!